Oh my g-d 100lbs, that’s insane… I can be 100lbs down within the next two weeks... Is it real? Maybe I should weigh myself again just to be sure. 100lbs…holy crap that’s two bags of 50lb cat litter I used to haul around at one of my old jobs… wow… how did I even function carrying that much extra weight? And if I let it go too long the monologue gets a little darker, becoming angry with the fact that after SO MUCH I still have to drop 60 more at least, BUT I DON’T dwell on that… I dwell on the 93lbs down and the next 7 before I hit that triple digit number…
It’s SCARY! Whenever anything good happens I’m always the one that waits for that other something that must be following it up to take it all away… I honestly feel like the moment the scale hits that new magic number my whole world will implode… power grids will go dark across the Midwest and my life will end as I know it… I don’t know if I’ll laugh, dance, cry or what… probably a little of all three… and the anticipation is killing me… I go through moments of wanting work out for hours to get to 100lbs down NOW and have it over with… then I want to sit on my couch and make sure I don’t burn TOO many calories for fear I’ll have lost 100lbs before I’m ready!
Two weeks… two short weeks… that’s the goal I’ve got… ready or not…here I go!
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Congrats from one dancer to another - and someone who lost 60lb and kept it off from dancing! YOU ROCK!
Dear Kat, I just read your whole blog, and I am so amazed and awed. I knew a little of your story from around the studio, but reading your words makes it even more inspiring. Just wonderful. With your determination, spunk, intelligence, and tenacity - you will definitely kick that bad habit! Plus, you've got all of us rooting for you: tons of positive energy and prayers headed your way.
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